No Left Middle Finger

wow, seriously, it is a lot of fun typing without my middle finger. maybe this is the slippery slope to typing with only two fingers. i'm going to try to type for as long as i can. here i go. hoooray, whooo, i was slipping around today while i was driving, and then i was running out of gas, and then i started freaking out and looking for a gas station. i really can't tell how much gas it takes to drive if i'm running the heater and stuff. i do not really know where the gas stations are around here, although i am starting to get better at knowing where the parking lots are. i am getting raped at this parking lot right now since i couldn't park on the street since it's a snow emergency. then i went to starbucks today and got a coffee and some food with some free money jia gave me. hooray for jia. she gave me it for my graduation present. i have $4 left. and then i used the internet in starbucks, and it was free. that was nice, but it was butt slow, so i guess who cares. then i ran home because i did not wear warm shoes and my feet were cold. i don't drink coffee much, so i felt kind of sick after that. i emailed a lot of people today. i have started to make cards, but i have sort of lost momentum, and i still need to figure out where to send them, and the holidays are almost over already! i am seriously behind. the traffic getting home on mem drive was butt slow. and i was running out of gas. that's why i was freaking out. at least i parked in an indoor parking lot. i hate dusting off all the snow. i think i need a warmer jacket. my coworker at work had me try on his goosedown jacket. he says that it's the best, and that i should go to first night, boston. i said, no way, it is freaking cold. he said, not if you have a goosedown jacket. he said that where he grew up, the black people loved goose down jackets, and they also liked to steal the mercedez-benz hood ornament, cuz he had a mercedez car, and then they would wear it around their necks as bling. damn, i did not know how to spell mercedes. on npr, they were talking about some israelis who were like, we will not stop bombing them until we bomb them all, and i'm like, man, i thought we were against genocide. i don't think any of them really believe any of the palestinians are really "just civilians." although i think they are all civilians, even the "militants." i mean, i don't really believe you are a "professional military" unless you are hired by a state. but i guess everyone is in the military for the same reason. they are all civilians with nothing better to do. i like singing along to songs on the radio when i am driving. the other day i was singing along to 'i will never be your woman' by whitetown. today i was singing along to no doubt, 'don't speak.' i even like britney spears' new song 'womanizer.' i went to the mit library yesterday to borrow a book by pretending to be shen, but then i couldn't find the book. i was also nervous that they would realize i am not the person on the id. i can't really tell if we look alike or not. that was weirding me out. i was looking at the snow falling and thinking about how in pictures, they always make it look very pretty, like white snow falling against a blue sky or something, or white snow against the dark of night. but what it really looks like is just a storm. white snow against white sky. it doesn't really look good until after the storm is over. on npr today they were talking about how the legal system in 19 states is running out of money and they are postponing many civil and criminal cases, for example rape cases. the saddest part is that for a lot of cases, the preparations were already done, and so if they postpone it, then it was all for a waste since everyone will have to testify again when they reschedule the trial. definitely at least some people will just drop the charges because people will want to move on with their lives. also, if it drags on for too long, the case could be dismissed since the criminal justice system is supposed to try defendants in a timely manner or something like that. on friday, in massachusetts, one oz. of marijuana is only going to be punishable by a $100 fine. wow. but people in the government are trying to get local governments to pass things. on npr the other day, they said that homicides committed by black males have increased over the past 7 years. they said that homicides by white guys also increased but only a little bit. but then they said total homicides decreased a little bit, so i'm confused. but maybe i'm getting it all wrong. police people said it's because they are getting less funding and crime-prevention programs are getting less funding in general. less funding less funding less funding. why does this not come up when it comes to be election time? on npr, they were talking about a town where ducks walk on fishes, and people love it so usually they throw sliced bread to the ducks and fishes so that they fight over it, and it's really cute. in more recent years, people have been throwing more and more crap, though, like cakes and other breadlike things, and so the parks people said, no more bread, but then everyone complained because they said that's stupid, they always threw bread, the fish look pretty healthy, they're taking all the fun out of life, and that their local businesses are going to be hurt since it's a tourist attraction. i think the last point is the most reasonable. but it still seems like, duh, guys, you are throwing too much crap in the water. so the parks people had to take it back, and reconsider it for a year. it annoys me, though. i think that the parks people did a bad job of the execution, but the people really strike me as shortsighted and spoiled brats. i mean, what the hell? do they really NEED to throw bread to the fishes? people had been bringing garbage bags full of crap to throw to the fishes. what the hell do they expect to happen? that reminds me of the students at ec because they complain that the administration doesn't want them to have kitchens. they would prefer if kids would just eat at dining halls. they kids think the man just wants to get them down, which is sort of true, but anyway, they think that if they invited the admins to dinner on hall, that they would see how great it is. but you know what? the kitchens are totally gross. there is always stuff practically rotting in the sinks. it smells like butthole. if kids are serious about proving to the admins that kitchens are good, then they should keep them clean. admins don't give a shit how you get fed. they don't like paying for the roach and mice exterminators. also, npr was talking about how some coal ash piles from coal generating plants collapsed on some towns. hahahaha. people say, maybe now they will regulate it. yes, this is what it takes. some things have to go wrong first. otherwise, nobody cares. call it stupid or just call it human.